Argh.....I wanna cry

在你心里，到底是爱他还是不爱他。我也被你搞糊涂了。时间也许会冲淡一切，但我对你的感情，不是一朝一夕能说不喜欢就不喜欢的（这是我个人的习惯，喜欢一个东西或人就不能放手的）。也许是我这个习惯所以到今天都没有谈过恋爱。神啊救救我把，一把年纪了，一个爱人都没有，我这样的男人，阿就快要绝种，她呢又在哪儿.

Haiz... Second week of holidays liao and I have not done anything, or at least complete them. How?

Wonder how are you now after going to sleep? Hope you are better =)

Oh my god, should not have been so KPO. Went to KPO and look around your blog, then saw something that I should not have

2 weeks of holidays

My, time really flies... in the third day of my 2 weeks of holidays. Bought 2 new CDs that I had wanted to buy. 后青春期的诗 by 五月天 and 魔杰座 by 周杰伦. Went to get them after my medical appointment today. Sembawang Music has folded liao is it? Even the shop in Velocity is gone. Every Sembawang Music shop that I know of is gone (Eh? except the one in Bugis, haven been there for quite some time. But also I think no more liao la. Hahaz!!! That is because whatever bad things I think will happen, 90% of the time will come true one)

Life is still a wreck. Cannot find my homework to do now. Gonna do my protein tech project with Eugene. But been wondering, we have another assignment for protein tech other than the project and the report???

0_0???

Nothing better to do...

Jus finished my common test and I... Haiz, useless to talk about it. makes me feel so down only. Ha, today went to the national museum. It is one of the best place that I want to be in (I love history and historical stuff). Too bad did not take any photos. I was the only guy from my class who was there lo... But generally had fun lah =)

Now have so many things to do, some that I did not even know of. Kak was telling me that there's this project or assignment to be completed and I was like "got this meh?". it is 2 weeks of working non-stop it seems

Shitz.... Why am I... These 2 weeks gonna be hell (at least for me, you know what i mean right? Kak...)

A song

This is a nice cantonese song by Leo Ku （古巨基). It kinda talks about how I feel right now

I Drive Myself Crazy

Wa....really busy nowadays, dun have time to blog (this was done when I was side-tracking)

Kenangan Terindah with translation

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
(I am weak without you)
Aku yang rentan karena
(I am vulnerable because of)
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
(The love which was lost from you)
Yang mampu menyanjungku
(That was able to flatter me)

Selama mata terbuka
(As long as my eyes are open)
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
(Even until my heart stops beating)
Selama itu pun
(It's as far as that will)
Aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
(I try to make you happy)

Darimu...
(From you)
Kutemukan hidupku
(Have I seen my life)
Bagiku...
(For me)
Kau lah cinta sejati
(You are my one true love)

Ooh...
(Ooh...)

CHORUS:

Bila yang tertulis untukku
(If what was written for me)
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
(Is the best for you)
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
(Then will I remember you as)
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
(My most beautiful memory in my life)

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
(It won't be easy for me)
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
(To leave these footsteps in my life)
Yang tlah terukir abadi
(They were engraved permanently)
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
(As the most beautiful memories in my life)

Ooh...

ARGHZ!!!

How not to think of you? Your laughter is etched in my memory, everytime I close my eyes, you are the one that runs in my mind

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Hanson - I will come to you

A nice song by Hanson. It is like I am living in the past like that, always listen to songs that were so the past. The first week of school was fine for me, with some moments of anticipation (my lab report for my blood test) and a tinge of heartbreak for me...

I am happy for you that you have found someone you love, I hope he loves you too. I hate to admit it but I feel 不甘心, but I am glad that I had feelings for you. I know this may sound thick-skinned but...(Hehe, I have decided to do this like I have always did before). I may not be a good person (not character wise) but I will be there for people when they need me.

One more thing, how come everytime what I hope will happen does not happen???

Been to the doc today to review my blood tests results. Everything's fine with the test and the doc now has put me on medication for my trembling even though they do not know what is really wrong with me.

Still feeling the same way towards you... How I wished the feeling was mutual, then I would not be feeling this way now

我喜欢的人却喜欢别人

I want you to know that...I miss you...I miss you so (song was from terence's blog)

Long time since I had an entry (Sorry blog). School has started and the modules are getting tougher and tougher. I know it even before lessons started proper.

谁能知我的心事。我是越来越喜欢你了，不知为何。我好难过哦，好像哭但却哭不出来。Haiz...

Hahahaha... I never knew I could sleep so much until I studied in poly. Ihave slept the whole day today, this not being the first time I have done this since last year when I started poly life... The whole day ok? This is the first in y whole 22 years of life. Guess I needed that cos of the studying and paper that is going on these two weeks.

Exams...Second paper

The exams are here... 2 weeks of war has begun. Marketing was easy meh? Can do one la I admit but only if you know ur stuff well then can score one. HBD today was manageable and it was the same as marketing la (you must know ur stuff VERY well). Hopefully it is the same for the rest of the papers. I want to score well for my ABC cos looking at my score from the test and reports, I got a "B". Hopefully can get a "A" for my overall.
Man, today in the exam hall was puzzled like hell man. Always heard someone snoring away during the paper. Thought it was my imagination but Haki told me that someone was indeed sleeping. Very pro man, that person...
Me myself is very tired now too lor. Haiz...

127 days

A nice song that I have forgotten to add in my blog. It has been so long liao, this song. There is a chinese version to this too, also nice (this is the korean one). The MV is nice too, kinda sad story. A guy dying so that the girl he loves can be with his best friend who happens to be steady with that girl

Funny video by M.O.V.E

Busy busy busy... These are the only words I could say

Invisible man

Nice song here. The words are...heck. It is a nice song nonetheless.
This sat's the birthday of this girl, _____. Wanna wish her a happy birthday in advance. Hope ur wishes comes true !!! Her friends in class are going to celebrate it for her tml in school.

Boring life

Work, Study... These are the two things I am doing each day. Kinda boring life is it not? Other than doing these two things, it seems I have nothing else to do. I do not even have the dream of going to a place where I do not have to do all these work (What is wrong with me?).

Also, my friend been telling me how badly he did for his test. You think I did any better? Hahaz!!! =)

我像个残废， 飞不出你的世界。。。

Well, tomorrow's the start of the common tests

Long time

Sorry... Have not been updating of late. Nothing much has happened over this period so I do not know what to write. This post is something to let people know that I am still alive. Common test is next week lo so I have been mugging. Do not know whether I am studying the right way or not. What I post below has nothing to do with what I am saying over here. Just a video of one of my favourite group, Rage Against The Machine.

Sorry that I have not been updating for so long, been busy with school and stuff, no time to blog.

This is a special day for me. Why? It is the day before my birthday! Happy 22 to me =). Birthday wish? That is for me to know cos if I say out not coming true right? Hahaz. Will to wearing the polo tee some of my classmates bought for me to school tomorrow (29/5). Wee....

Worth Of Friendship

Haiz... My feelings down 到了谷底. Y you may ask. Well to begin, I have heard so many stories of how friends can turn their backs on each other after some arguments or differences. It happen to YM and Mr. X and now, _____ and her girls. I just wish I could be of help, to them, to other future similar problems. Makes me kinda worried for _____ as I was told by her before that she engages in self-mutilation last time. I scared she will walk that path again.

How much is friendship worth? $1000000? To me, it is priceless lo

我的错。。。loosely translated as "my fault"

????? What is wrong with me? (Puzzled) Been feeling weird since yesterday when I keep misplacing my stuffs and as some of my frens say, disorganised which is very rare for them to see me in this.

Stress....So many things to do. Told myself to start revising my work but end up doing some other stuff. Argh!!

Entering the month of may soon, it'll be my birthday =)

小宇 - 終於說出口

ZZzzzz.....

Bored... Nothing to do and school's starting next week. It's always like that, you hope hols will be here soon when you are in school term, you cant wait for school to start soon when you are having hols (well, at least it's this way for me, someone who has nothing to do)

Will be doing the NE project tomorrow in school. Better make sure that it is done tomorrow, could not imagine not being able to do that. Thinking about it, this week is really busy for me. Projects plus a task to bake a real cake for someone's birthday, well at least learn to bake.

Kept passing the pet shop near my house today. Cant forget the one dog I saw there...

我想个残废，飞不出你的世界

I hate to admit this but I cannot decide...

School's starting soon... Will be moving on to year 2. Been told that the lessons will be heavier and more stressful.

1. uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.

2. Psychology. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.

So that is what it means. But anywhere would not be what I'm thinking.

Had a great time watching a movie last night, thanks for everything =)

Hm... Nowadays like nothing to really blog about.

Feeling kinda bored lately, can't wait for school to start. But that will mean no more time to complete the project. Kinda contradicting eh? On one hand wish for school to start soon, on the other hand wish for more time to do the project.

Been feeling funny inside emotionally. Will start thinking of my past out of the blue. Haiz, why? why? why?

Kenangan Terindah

This is the first song in malay that I really liked, although it has been less than a year since I first heard it.

Hahaz...I have another title and identity. I had be known as a student, a brother, an uncle and now, a teacher! Hahaz...

A song for lady

It is so boring !!!
Hearing everyone's working during this holiday but what am I doing?
Haiz...

How to see you again

Yuri is so pretty in this. This video is kinda funny too =)

Went to Suntec City for the IT exhibition. My god, it was really "people mountain people sea". It was kinda hard to get around...

Met my friend who was working there. Also came upon a bastard, I do not wish to say more about the f***ed up incident, makes my blood boil...

Spent about $100+ on an mp3 player from Creative and a CD-R cake set.

...MOVE...again

Ooo...I like them!!! Since like the first time I heard them on Initial D anime

...MOVE...

I'm so so sorry that I make you feel this way, I hate to admit it but I dun really wish to see you leave...

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10...

Oh my... I am so so blind

Ooooo....Today is the first time I have cooked porridge man.

Well, my Mum's alright now, was discharged this afternoon. Was so relieved.

Tomorrow's going for a class outing...

Exams are over. School holidays are here. 1 1/2 months!!!

Was at the SGH with my mum for the whole day, yesterday also. She was there cos of her eyes. She was complaining of her vision being blocked or something. So she went there yesterday and I had to rush down to SGH after my paper. She was then told that her retina had become partially detached from the eye and water has entered the space created. Was told that an operation is needed and it would take 45 mins (like real) and she could go home after that.

Went with her to SGH at around 1 today. Waited at the Singapore National Eye Centre for like until 5 after she went to register. Then I stupidly waited for her op to end before going for dinner which I didnt in the end. So at around 7.30 pm to 8.00 pm, I went to have my dinner. Not long before I could chomp down my food, I received a call from the nurse.

Nurse: Are you the son of XXX?
Me : Yes, I am
NUrse: Your mother has come out from the op but she has to be admitted.

I was like, "wat the..."
So I contacted my Dad and told him about it, where my Mum's ward is while I go and do the paperwork for her admission. After everything, it was already almost 10.15...

Will be there to visit her tomorrow...

Bad Day

Today is really a bad day for me man...

First my watch goes haywire. The clock face shows 12 when it is only 9+ in the morning. Then came the freaking Biochemistry paper which is really a goner liao. Was only able to write crap in my answers. Then after the paper, cut myself when I brushed against the wall at the sports hall. My god, the wall could kill I tell you. It was just a brushed and I can get a wound of about 2 cm which is the worst out of the three I got. Oooo....got pictures for you all to see. Enjoy! -) (the biggest wound has been covered up by a band-aid at the request of Nic and courtesy of Desiree. Thank You!!

Hm...I've realised that I do not have much to write about...

Been going back to school to mug for the impending exams, nothing seems to be going into this numb skull of mine. And exams are like ??? days away (I would say 5 days or so)

Had a scolding from my friend today. What was said to me does make sense but I do not know why I am still adament in going my way which leads to nowhere. I do not know what i should do. I am someone who is easily swayed by what others say. This is bad I know but that is the way I am...

Went to buy chocolates and lollipops for those going for tomorrow's organic chemistry lesson. Everywhere I go I see people getting their stuff for valentine's day tomorrow. Chocolates, flowers. Everywhere. Hope that I can pass tomorrow like any other day, without any hitches or heartbreaking news. Been feeling kinda weird these past few days, like as if something bad will happen ...orz...

Feeling of uncertainty

Dang... Why do I always feel this way after the CNY holidays? I feel that something is happening or is going to happen... Something bad (well, at least to me)

Happy CNY!!!

To all, Happy CNY to you (thou this may be quite late)

Going out of my mind

Why? Why do I feel heartbroken when I see you so close like a couple with others? I could just feel my heart breaking up seeing that. How I wished I was the one... A few people have told me to give you up but I do not feel like doing that.
Thoughts of your face runs in my mind, so much so that I want to take my mind out and erase you from my memories because I have this feeling that I will never be with you in the end...

Falling

I'm falling for you

WooHoo... Long time since I've updated. Life's pretty bored and hectic now. Tests and the impending exams. Have to start studying now lo...

Had IT and cell bio prac test yesterday. Didn't really study much for both, especailly mitosis and meiosis for cell bio and it came out like almost 1/3 of the cell bio practical test paper was on that.

3 more weeks to exams, soon to CNY and Valentine's day.

OMG...Been looking for this song for like...since I first heard it on MVP情人 (like about four years ago)

Haiz...The new term has started. It is another round of being busy with work. Now have projects to be handed in these 2 weeks

This poster here is a movie that I found on the racks on NYP's library. This is a japanese black and white samurai movie and lasted for 121 minutes. Haha, I stayed through the whole movie. Though the endings quite lame and the movie's in balck and white, the whole movie's quite good I must say. But my "Kak" Erina, who was watching half of the movie with me, commented that the movie was quite bloody with a few scenes of blood shed(in black and white) and later on body parts which she was not there to watch.