恒星的恒心

五月天 恒星的恒心

你和我看星星那夜空多神秘
天很黑风很急你把我抱得很紧
沉默的银河系因为你有意义
你要是落泪滴世界都要下雨

雨降落在大地我安静倾听却无法领悟你为何放弃

带走回荡的回忆你像流浪的流星
把我丢在黑夜想著你
你要离开的黎明我的眼泪在眼睛

下定决心我决定
恒星的恒心等你等你(等著你等著你等著你等著你)
那一年的花季那一刻的呼吸
那一生的旅行因为你动魄惊心
我不是很聪明我以为我可以
守护你一直到最后一丝呼吸

我只是没发现故事已结局
你早已离去我还在坚定

老了累了倦了变了那不会是我不会是我

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我不是很聪明，不定的花言巧语，不懂得追女生，只会吓跑他们
喜欢的却没机会，真失败。

23rd of Dec. It will be eve of Christmas soo. A seasons of love and joy or a season of sadness?? You decide lo... For me, this day is kinda sad for me, would rather stay at home to countdown than go down to town and see all those couples walking about with their other half. Somemore got those people spraying those fake snow which is bloody sticky after a while plus the big crowd that will be hanging around. I do not like crowds you see.....

Well today was a sunday but went to some church event at Rachel's church. We were kinda late so the event was already on the wqay when we went in. It only lasted for about 20-30 mins. We went to century square and Tampines Mall after that. The event was fine at I got to learn something. Hahaz!!! No, not about the religion but a new way of looking at someone's name.. Hahaz

To _____, sorry for turning you down this week when you invited me for some church event.

Merry Christmas To All and A Happy New Year!!!

分手吧

One of my favourite song, first heard it from SH's brother's CD but it sounded very familiar even then cos I like heard it on my sister's com even before that. All this happened about more than 7 years sgo so this song quite old.

Rain, Rain...

Went to Sentosa today. Had time only for some of the attraction before it started raining like what (it has been like this for the past few weeks). Done a lot of things that are the first time for me. Had my first sub at Subway

Actually the weather is just like my feelings now. I also dunno why but I feel ike crap now. Will just out of the blue feek like crap and no mood to do anything. The common test period was also like that.

Christmas is coming soon, think most probably will be staying at home on the 24th while people are swarming to town for the celebrations. Why should I go out on that day? It's the time for love, seeing couples around just makes me feel...

Also, come to think about it, everytime I go to a place of worship, people, be it the father from a church or a disciple from the temple, will be talking to me. Makes me feel worried

Great Teacher Onizuka

Nice anime, nice drama series, nice songs from this title... What more can I say? (although this is kinda old liao) For those still wondering what I am talking about, I'm talking about the anime/show Great Teacher Onizuka

Dream

Had a really weird dream last night. Dreamt that that girl, _____, was a rich man's daughter.

Just finished my sem 2 common tests. Dun feel too good about it I must say. Leaving everything to fate liao, I have played my part. How I fared depends on what the higher being has planned to me.

There are things that I can leave to fate to decide but some others I can't.

Now gonna have two weeks of break but does not seem to be a "break" as there are still projects to be done and reports to complete. Been acting strange lately, think I'm going mad it seems.

Couples...

Wa... my class MB 0704 now has got 2 couples. Those two couples all ar, hush hush one.

Regrets

Come to think about it, there are many regrets in my life. My regretting not showing my real feelings for a girl in the past. I really liked her then, I'm positive of that. But because of me not being able to bring what I actually meant across to you, you took it as a rejection and left my world from then on. Although now we may be friends who seldom talk, I still inevitably think of you and the moments we spent together. I know time has passed, you may not remember those times and now you have a boyfriend and graduating soon but it will stay with me forever.

Now, I regret hinting at _____ that I like her. I know I might sound like a jerk who 见一个，爱一个 but the struggles that I go through to ascertain my feelings, 谁知道？

如果能让我重新再来一次， 我希望我不曾出现在你生命里

如果能让我重新再来一次， 我希望我不曾出现在你生命里...

Common test is coming soon... Akan Datang. Haven had the heart and time to really sit down and revise my work. Had to do a lot of reports and tutorials. Wanted to open my notes but always end up sitting in front of my lappie, doing nothing. Dunno why but have this feeling that I am ill-treating my lappie and it is going to die on me soon. Sorry lappie!! =)

TGIF. Today's Friday. Not a very bad day, kinda cold actually. Worked on my reports during the long 5 hour break. Learnt about normal distribution today and had a scare during Biostats lecture. Sister la, scare me only. _____ came into the lecture hall and sat in the row in front of me. Was looking at her and smiling inside me, my face turned red too. Then my twin came in. Fiona and her fren from another class also came in soon. I was stoning when sister suddenly told me something softly. Couldnt hear her so she borrowed a pencil and wrote on my notes "I think they are a couple". I felt my heart sank as I thought she was referring to _____ and my twin. I immediately asked her who it was but luckily she was referring to Fiona and her friend (a girl too btw). Really, the feeling was... (I had this sort of feelings previously too, before meeting _____)

Oh...The chinese words that I have on top are from an MV by Jay I saw the other day. Loosely translated it means "if I could repeat time, I hoped that I would have not appeared in your life". Something like that la

Was I wrong.....?

Been thinking about ir this whole week. I knew the Organic report was supposed to be handed in on Friday but I told my class that it is due on Thursday late afternoon. I knew that if I said it is due on Friday, many people will take their own sweet time in handing in. The teacher said specifically she wants it at 10 on Friday which is right after our MicroBiology Lecture. I had no choice but to do that...

Stressed

I am feeling so stressed up nowadays, so much so that I feel like doing things I normally won't. Haiz...

Wah...Listened to YM's problems really jia lat. Now got this news about the dragon boaters who met with an accident overseas which resulted in 5 Singaporeans' death and it seems like she had some connections to those unfortunate 5 souls. One was her friend's friend, one was her friend's boyfriend etc. She's having a hard time consoling her friends. Hope she can stay strong cos she herself has her own problems to settle.

Common tests are around the corner. Dang!!! Haven studied for it. No confidence at all. Then have so much things to do somemore. Plus no mood to study. Cant soncentrate. The sum of all these is DIE!!! Hahaz. Somemore have to deal with matters of the heart, more and more of my classmates are linking me up with _____. Not that I am unhappy about this but I'm afraid that this would make her more scared of me and jeopardise our friendship. I admit I like her la but I need to confirm my feelings, whether it is just an infatuation or not.

The other day, Mark told me he cofessed to that classmate of his that he liked her and wished to bring their friendship into a relationship. Guess what? He was rejected by that girl and was told that she preferred them staying as friends. He toldme he felt better after telling her cos he's been bottling up since a few months ago. Wish I had the courage like him to do that but I guess I will never be able to do that. Met with a lot of this kind of situation liao so got phobia. I tell you, if this kind of things happened from my point of view, _____ will definitely not want to talk to me.

RAch, have fun in HK!!!
Fen, exams finished liao right (by right)? Hope it goes well...

Reporting...Reporting

Woohoo!!! Reports in progress

Boring day

Went around getting accesories for my laptop. Cooling fan, mouse... Haven done any work for today... HAHAZ

Ya...Ya...(Yak Yak)

Today had Organic Chemistry practical. Was to do the experiment in groups of 5 and was in a group together with Fucker, Fyona, Shi Min and Bee Yong. But what the hell, the whole experiment was practically done by the "love birds" lo. The others have nothing to do at all so we were all lazing around or helping other groups. It was like the group only contains them.

Fucker(he wants us to call him that) was in his crap talking nonsense again. I can understand what the teacher was going through. She only had to be with him for 2 hours per week but us? Everyday of the week!!! Bee Yong was asking him to shut the hell up all the time. When the practical ended, Fucker was still talking crap with his "girlfriend". Bring the caffeine from the experiment home...blah blah. From what I see, he and his "girlfriend" was always trying to joke around in class and asking STUPID (and I really mean STUPID) questions (mostly Fucker will be the one asking).

Got back our MicroB practical reports today. WTF??? "Love birds" can score 100%??? They were asking the teacher all the time la. Others do not even have a chance to ask about how to do the report. Every minute you will see one of them hogging to the teacher...Then it was biostats. Fucker was telling/bragging about his antics in the Organic practical, about how he made fun of the teacher and stuff behind me. Wah!!! Cannot stand it man, had the freaking urge to turn round and.....Nevertheless, the biostats lecture was short.

India's Michael Jackson

A song by 五月天 《好不好》

不知是对或是不对
不知是好或是不好
不知你甘会笑阮憨
热天西北雨的下午想你不知影你在哪
真希望看到你的笑容
你的温暖充满着阮孤单的心脏
我不能继续再等待想要对你说
乎你想乎你猜
是谁人整眠烦恼
烦恼着无情的风
无情的雨阻碍咱的路
甲你疼甲你惜
甲你捧在我双手中
我一生唯一的希望
要给你快乐好或不好
要给你快乐
好或不好好或不好

日子有甜也有艰苦
有你有我互相照顾
想要听你心内的感想
亲爱你甘有听阮讲
亲爱到底是好不好
甘讲你惊阮没信用
还是你搁有苦衷

WHY???

Why do people try to do last minute work? I admit I do too but now very seldom already. A lot of classmates asked me for my reports, hoping to have some reference on how to do. It is due tomorrow. I do not know if I should give it to them. I'm afraid that they might copy stuff from my reports, then confirm will get very low one lo. Most of the information in my report is my hard work, blood, sweat and tears. All put into it. I finished mine yesterday so today was left to touch up on them before I print them out for submission tomorrow. I wouldn't want to be suspected of sharing my reports, because I somehow have this feeling that these people might copy wholesale chunks in my reports. It's not that I'm being selfish or anything but if I got low marks because my reports were not up to standard, I'll greatly accept my fate. But if it was because someone copied mine, then it is not worth it. At least those who did it earlier, I can still trust that they will alter here and there my information because they have the time.

Another thing... I am not a person who knows everything one lo. I know being a class rep I am supposed to like know everything but there's still a limit to that ma. Do not come to me and ask me questions about the school I cannot answer. Very stressful one

+( orz

So many reports left undone, no time to study... Sianz

Today quite ok, had MicroBiologyB practical. She finally spoke to me? (or so I guess??). Woa, the IT practical in the morning was really alien to me, could only listen and follow instructions, gonna forget all about it after that (like now, I do not even remember what I did in that class). Somemore had to do an assignment for that module.

+( orz (praying at a grave?) Hahaz

I do not know what I am doing. Tried to study but can't seemed to get the information into this head of mine. I don't know how or what I am gonna do, may not be able to pass this sem like I did for the last sem. ARGH!!!

Still do not have the courage to talk to her (do I even stand a chance of talking to her in the first place?). She seems to be avoiding me whenever she can. Hope things will be better as we continue in class. I do not really want to lose a friend at the very least even if we cannot be a couple. I do not know how to put it across to her cos she seemed very scared of me. Am I really that scary? ARGH!!!

So much things to do now, so much that I do not even have the time and energy to think of what YM told me about yesterday. Somehow I feel that what I said is true to a certain extent. Haiz... How I wished I never existed in the first place. I now bring trouble to so many people and was never successful in any thing I do. Rejection has became a natural thing for me. What to do? People keep telling me my time is not here yet but have they even think that I might never be able to be successful in this lifetime of mine? Hahaz...(Should I cry or laugh at this point?)

Maybe I talk a lot of crap now just to keep my mind off??

Peace...