Break In2 The Nite

2011-09-23T20:51:00.001+08:00

Long time, long time.
So many things have happened this days, do not wish to talk about them. I am feeling so dejected.

2011-01-24T14:05:00.000+08:00

one more week to CNY...

2011....

2010-12-31T22:47:00.002+08:00

Long time since I blogged.....Wat
Right now I am not in Singapore. Yup....
Graduated from nyp....Wat is next?

2010 is coming to an end and a new year is cooming (2011)
Wat's my wish?

2010-09-04T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hm....Been lazing around these days since I have been back. Did quite a few things that were the first time for me. Kinda proud of it, can be improved I guess? My god, lappies' slowing down, is there something wrong?

There's this video on youtube that quite old. It's about this variety show where the people are not allowed to laugh at something or they would be whacked. This episode was about watching a video of a japanese man trying to speak english. Cracks me up =)

One more thing, "I love You" in Hawaii is "Aloha wau ia oi"? Looks like "Aloha wau lau oi" to me leh......

2010-08-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

Let's see.... It has been...(thinks hard)...since I had an entry (sweeps the cobwebs off this page).
Er....Watever

Graduated from poly, now waiting for the sky to drop. Have not checked my results yet, do not even know if they are out or not... Hehe

I have only one word to describe my life now, and that is BORED...

After so long

2009-10-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

Hm... It has been so long since my last entry. N0w having my holidays but soon will be going to China and Hong Kong for some school trip, which I think is the last week before the semester starts. Have not packed my lugguage yet. Now in school waiting for Ms. Tan to give me the air tickets so I could go get my passport tomorrow. God, I was late at the time given to me by her and now I dunno whether she is angry or what, could not get hold of her. God please...

Regarding the trip, I am the only guy there. So willbe staying in a hotel room on my own... Had promised to upload my pictures from my trip, so think must take quite a few liao...

心里的痛

2009-04-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

Haiz orz.... No matter how I hard I may try, I just find it hard to do so. I hate to see you so troubled cos of one person who has broken your heart so much. You said I should move on, but the one who is hanging on is you

First Love

2009-04-20T21:49:00.003+08:00

First love is really the one you will never get over, even if you do get it over, it will be a very time before you will be ready to start a new one. It really breaks one (as so I have seen or heard from others).

2009-04-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hey hey...It has been a long time since I had an entry. Nothing has been going on much except for my attachment and FYP. Attachment has been good, have not really started on my FYP as yet.

Songs by Michael Wong, 光良, are nice to listen to. The lyrics may be saddening but they are so meaningful. A pleasure to listen to.

2009-03-28T00:25:00.001+08:00

What the hell am I doing?

That's when I'll stop loving you

2009-03-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

thats when ill stop loving you - Nsync

And I will always be there... When winter comes in summer When there's no more forever When lies become the truth Well you know then, baby That's when I'll stop loving That's when I'll stop loving you

First week of IAP and FYP

2009-03-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

First week of attachment in NYP has ended. Must say it is kinda enjoyable yet boring for me. Enjoyable cos there is things to learn, boring cos it's like orientation like that lo, no action but observing only.

Think I will be doing cell culture on Mon. Must commit to memory on how to do it.

So near and yet so far...

IAP and FYP

2009-03-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

Will be starting my IAP and FYP tomorrow (I think because I am totally clueless about things going on)

2009-03-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

A nice chinese song in the "painted skin" movie.

Well, here I am back to blog about nothing again, this would bore people reading this blog to death I think. Well, exams are over now and starting attachment soon. I kinda envy other people who are going to work outside because they will be paid although it is meagre but still they are paid. The place that I got is? The school. NYP!!! Same place everyday, no chance to go out and have a look and worst, not paid at all. Dang it..:~( Hahaz.

So many things happened in these times that I have not been blogging. There was CNY where got robbed in Malaysia but still great nonetheless and then there was the dreaded exams which I have no confidence whatsoever in

And one more thing, I am so hooked onto facebook which I think is kinda bad?

So much has been on my mind...

2009-02-11T13:59:00.001+08:00

My head's gonna blow soon man. All these studying for the exams is making me blow soon

"Cassis" in english???

2009-02-08T15:32:00.000+08:00

Repeatedly as always, I only caused you grief as always
I must have even hurt you too. I remain unable to move
Why does your pain touch me so?

Surely it's because I was afraid of repeating history and losing you

We wiped away unforgettable days by nestling close together
You held my hand without any questions

Even if your feelings grow distant tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged

Even I pass from your heart tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged
I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...

Along with the painful things - almost to the point of forgetting -
I'm thinking of you
The more I count the nights on which we don't meet,
Anxiety grows in my chest

Collecting different types of loneliness; please don't cry alone
No matter how far apart we are, let's go on believing in each other

I want to remain smiling like this somehow
Without hurting you
Those emotions that had faded away with time,
I don't want to feel them again

Even if your feelings grow distant tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged
Even I pass from your heart tomorrow
Surely my love will remain unchanged

Please have eyes only for me

Please don't let go of my hand

I will walk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...

Mad TV's Batman

2009-02-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

Our superhero who has gone tight-budget?

2009-01-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

Cry On My Shoulder - Superstar

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can run away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

今夜月の見える丘に

2009-01-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

A nice Japanese song that I have liked since I heard it years ago. This is the theme song for a drama serial by Takuya Kimura called "Beautiful Life". It is a sad but touching show, worth the watch.

2009-01-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

所有的人，都说时间是魔法。
说终有一天，我能忘记最深爱的她。
为什么呢，想念每天都增加。
痛，钻进灵魂，占据会议，在生命发芽。
呐喊，挣扎，期待的未来啊，难道这么算了吗？
我一直在等，我会永远在这里...

The day we find love

2009-01-10T21:30:00.001+08:00

Don't you worry, I don't mean to make you sad
My tears will soon be over with your conscience clear for a new life ahead
Don't be sorry, I really need to hear the truth
The only thing I'm asking, cause I need you to remember me
As the only one who sets you free
Maybe time alone will make you see how deep our love could be
No, it's never to late

* Cause I know this isn't the first time won't be the last time
I surrender my soul cause you're always
Keeping me waiting, anticipating the day we find love once again

I won't give up while there's a glimmer of a chance
A dream that's never ending inviting love and a perfect romance
A burning passion, oh, baby, you're my destiny
But the message I'm receiving is you're through with me
But I'll be there even though you tell me you don't care, no,no
How could you forget the times we shared, don't throw our love away
You know it's never too late

Ooh, remember me as the only one who sets you free
Maybe time alone will make you see how deep our love could be
No, it's never too late, no, no, no, no

2009-01-08T22:37:00.003+08:00

Had no school today, so just stayed at home and rot. All that I planned to do last night for today were not done at all. Homework, housework... I hate it man.

Down for open house duty tml in the morning. Think should be staying back after that in the library to do some work. Dunno whether to bring my lappie or not. Later get stolen cos of the heavy influx of people.

That is me, so indecisive... Always stuck in this kinds of situations

2009-01-07T21:25:00.002+08:00

Argh... School's into its second week, so many projects left undone.

This week's open house for the school and I'm down for duty at the laboratory doing experiments for the visitors. Something something tornado is what it is called. Too bad, I would have wished to do the night shift on Friday, confirm will have less people and there is no need to worry about those people in school uniform and get on with the experiments as per normal.

Went for 五月天 events on sun and mon. On sunday was an outdoor sort of a concert that was a blast. Took the wrong freaking bus from indoor stadium thinking that I would reach Orchard but ended up in Bedok South (or somewhere around there). Immediately got down the bus and went across the road to take a bus back to indoor stadium. It was the first time taking that bus for me. Reached stadium only to realised the bus I was more familiar with had stopped service. (#$@$%&) NO other choice but to take a cab home.

Then on Monday, went to their autograph session at Central. Went there from school. Waited in line for an hour plus just to get their autograph on the lyrics booklet in the album. Got to shook their hands too. But too bad only 4 out of 5 members were there. The last one could not come over cos his father-in-law pasaed away.

Moving on from this, I feel somewhat that I am in trouble. Things were back to before where we would have little to talk about except schoolwork. Were the past 2 weeks or so just a dream? Was it something I did wrong or what? I am totally clueless. Please just let me know, I am willing to do anything just so we could go back.

2008-12-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

Argh.....I wanna cry

2008-12-23T15:54:00.002+08:00

在你心里，到底是爱他还是不爱他。我也被你搞糊涂了。时间也许会冲淡一切，但我对你的感情，不是一朝一夕能说不喜欢就不喜欢的（这是我个人的习惯，喜欢一个东西或人就不能放手的）。也许是我这个习惯所以到今天都没有谈过恋爱。神啊救救我把，一把年纪了，一个爱人都没有，我这样的男人，阿就快要绝种，她呢又在哪儿.

2008-12-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

Haiz... Second week of holidays liao and I have not done anything, or at least complete them. How?

Wonder how are you now after going to sleep? Hope you are better =)

2008-12-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

Oh my god, should not have been so KPO. Went to KPO and look around your blog, then saw something that I should not have

2 weeks of holidays

2008-12-17T22:01:00.003+08:00

My, time really flies... in the third day of my 2 weeks of holidays. Bought 2 new CDs that I had wanted to buy. 后青春期的诗 by 五月天 and 魔杰座 by 周杰伦. Went to get them after my medical appointment today. Sembawang Music has folded liao is it? Even the shop in Velocity is gone. Every Sembawang Music shop that I know of is gone (Eh? except the one in Bugis, haven been there for quite some time. But also I think no more liao la. Hahaz!!! That is because whatever bad things I think will happen, 90% of the time will come true one)

Life is still a wreck. Cannot find my homework to do now. Gonna do my protein tech project with Eugene. But been wondering, we have another assignment for protein tech other than the project and the report???

0_0???

Nothing better to do...

2008-12-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

Jus finished my common test and I... Haiz, useless to talk about it. makes me feel so down only. Ha, today went to the national museum. It is one of the best place that I want to be in (I love history and historical stuff). Too bad did not take any photos. I was the only guy from my class who was there lo... But generally had fun lah =)

Now have so many things to do, some that I did not even know of. Kak was telling me that there's this project or assignment to be completed and I was like "got this meh?". it is 2 weeks of working non-stop it seems

Shitz.... Why am I... These 2 weeks gonna be hell (at least for me, you know what i mean right? Kak...)

A song

2008-12-01T21:22:00.003+08:00

This is a nice cantonese song by Leo Ku （古巨基). It kinda talks about how I feel right now

I Drive Myself Crazy

2008-11-24T22:49:00.001+08:00

Wa....really busy nowadays, dun have time to blog (this was done when I was side-tracking)

Kenangan Terindah with translation

2008-10-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
(I am weak without you)
Aku yang rentan karena
(I am vulnerable because of)
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
(The love which was lost from you)
Yang mampu menyanjungku
(That was able to flatter me)

Selama mata terbuka
(As long as my eyes are open)
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
(Even until my heart stops beating)
Selama itu pun
(It's as far as that will)
Aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
(I try to make you happy)

Darimu...
(From you)
Kutemukan hidupku
(Have I seen my life)
Bagiku...
(For me)
Kau lah cinta sejati
(You are my one true love)

Ooh...
(Ooh...)

CHORUS:

Bila yang tertulis untukku
(If what was written for me)
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
(Is the best for you)
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
(Then will I remember you as)
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
(My most beautiful memory in my life)

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
(It won't be easy for me)
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
(To leave these footsteps in my life)
Yang tlah terukir abadi
(They were engraved permanently)
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
(As the most beautiful memories in my life)

Ooh...

ARGHZ!!!

2008-10-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

How not to think of you? Your laughter is etched in my memory, everytime I close my eyes, you are the one that runs in my mind

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

2008-10-18T15:09:00.001+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Hanson - I will come to you

2008-10-18T14:29:00.003+08:00

I Will Come To You - Hanson

A nice song by Hanson. It is like I am living in the past like that, always listen to songs that were so the past. The first week of school was fine for me, with some moments of anticipation (my lab report for my blood test) and a tinge of heartbreak for me...

I am happy for you that you have found someone you love, I hope he loves you too. I hate to admit it but I feel 不甘心, but I am glad that I had feelings for you. I know this may sound thick-skinned but...(Hehe, I have decided to do this like I have always did before). I may not be a good person (not character wise) but I will be there for people when they need me.

One more thing, how come everytime what I hope will happen does not happen???

2008-10-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

Been to the doc today to review my blood tests results. Everything's fine with the test and the doc now has put me on medication for my trembling even though they do not know what is really wrong with me.

Still feeling the same way towards you... How I wished the feeling was mutual, then I would not be feeling this way now

2008-10-15T21:56:00.002+08:00

I WILL - Namie Amuro

我喜欢的人却喜欢别人

2008-10-14T22:05:00.003+08:00

Letters To You - Finch

I want you to know that...I miss you...I miss you so (song was from terence's blog)

Long time since I had an entry (Sorry blog). School has started and the modules are getting tougher and tougher. I know it even before lessons started proper.

谁能知我的心事。我是越来越喜欢你了，不知为何。我好难过哦，好像哭但却哭不出来。Haiz...

2008-08-22T19:42:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha... I never knew I could sleep so much until I studied in poly. Ihave slept the whole day today, this not being the first time I have done this since last year when I started poly life... The whole day ok? This is the first in y whole 22 years of life. Guess I needed that cos of the studying and paper that is going on these two weeks.

Exams...Second paper

2008-08-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

The exams are here... 2 weeks of war has begun. Marketing was easy meh? Can do one la I admit but only if you know ur stuff well then can score one. HBD today was manageable and it was the same as marketing la (you must know ur stuff VERY well). Hopefully it is the same for the rest of the papers. I want to score well for my ABC cos looking at my score from the test and reports, I got a "B". Hopefully can get a "A" for my overall.
Man, today in the exam hall was puzzled like hell man. Always heard someone snoring away during the paper. Thought it was my imagination but Haki told me that someone was indeed sleeping. Very pro man, that person...
Me myself is very tired now too lor. Haiz...

127 days

2008-08-04T21:04:00.002+08:00

A nice song that I have forgotten to add in my blog. It has been so long liao, this song. There is a chinese version to this too, also nice (this is the korean one). The MV is nice too, kinda sad story. A guy dying so that the girl he loves can be with his best friend who happens to be steady with that girl

2008-07-27T20:44:00.001+08:00

Funny video by M.O.V.E

2008-07-23T21:58:00.001+08:00

Busy busy busy... These are the only words I could say

Invisible man

2008-07-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

98 Degrees - Invisible Man

Nice song here. The words are...heck. It is a nice song nonetheless.
This sat's the birthday of this girl, _____. Wanna wish her a happy birthday in advance. Hope ur wishes comes true !!! Her friends in class are going to celebrate it for her tml in school.

Boring life

2008-07-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

Work, Study... These are the two things I am doing each day. Kinda boring life is it not? Other than doing these two things, it seems I have nothing else to do. I do not even have the dream of going to a place where I do not have to do all these work (What is wrong with me?).

Also, my friend been telling me how badly he did for his test. You think I did any better? Hahaz!!! =)

2008-07-03T23:05:00.001+08:00

我像个残废，飞不出你的世界。。。

2008-06-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

Well, tomorrow's the start of the common tests

Long time

2008-06-19T21:05:00.003+08:00

Sorry... Have not been updating of late. Nothing much has happened over this period so I do not know what to write. This post is something to let people know that I am still alive. Common test is next week lo so I have been mugging. Do not know whether I am studying the right way or not. What I post below has nothing to do with what I am saying over here. Just a video of one of my favourite group, Rage Against The Machine.

2008-05-31T18:37:00.000+08:00

2008-05-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

Sorry that I have not been updating for so long, been busy with school and stuff, no time to blog.

This is a special day for me. Why? It is the day before my birthday! Happy 22 to me =). Birthday wish? That is for me to know cos if I say out not coming true right? Hahaz. Will to wearing the polo tee some of my classmates bought for me to school tomorrow (29/5). Wee....

Worth Of Friendship

2008-05-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

Haiz... My feelings down 到了谷底. Y you may ask. Well to begin, I have heard so many stories of how friends can turn their backs on each other after some arguments or differences. It happen to YM and Mr. X and now, _____ and her girls. I just wish I could be of help, to them, to other future similar problems. Makes me kinda worried for _____ as I was told by her before that she engages in self-mutilation last time. I scared she will walk that path again.

How much is friendship worth? $1000000? To me, it is priceless lo

我的错。。。loosely translated as "my fault"

2008-05-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

2008-05-01T22:23:00.002+08:00

????? What is wrong with me? (Puzzled) Been feeling weird since yesterday when I keep misplacing my stuffs and as some of my frens say, disorganised which is very rare for them to see me in this.

2008-04-29T22:00:00.001+08:00

Stress....So many things to do. Told myself to start revising my work but end up doing some other stuff. Argh!!

Entering the month of may soon, it'll be my birthday =)

小宇 - 終於說出口

2008-04-20T22:47:00.001+08:00

ZZzzzz.....

2008-04-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

Bored... Nothing to do and school's starting next week. It's always like that, you hope hols will be here soon when you are in school term, you cant wait for school to start soon when you are having hols (well, at least it's this way for me, someone who has nothing to do)

Will be doing the NE project tomorrow in school. Better make sure that it is done tomorrow, could not imagine not being able to do that. Thinking about it, this week is really busy for me. Projects plus a task to bake a real cake for someone's birthday, well at least learn to bake.

Kept passing the pet shop near my house today. Cant forget the one dog I saw there...

2008-04-04T22:09:00.002+08:00

我想个残废，飞不出你的世界

I hate to admit this but I cannot decide...

School's starting soon... Will be moving on to year 2. Been told that the lessons will be heavier and more stressful.

2008-04-02T23:37:00.001+08:00

1. uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.

2. Psychology. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.

So that is what it means. But anywhere would not be what I'm thinking.

2008-03-30T13:00:00.002+08:00

Had a great time watching a movie last night, thanks for everything =)

Hm... Nowadays like nothing to really blog about.

Feeling kinda bored lately, can't wait for school to start. But that will mean no more time to complete the project. Kinda contradicting eh? On one hand wish for school to start soon, on the other hand wish for more time to do the project.

Been feeling funny inside emotionally. Will start thinking of my past out of the blue. Haiz, why? why? why?

Kenangan Terindah

2008-03-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

This is the first song in malay that I really liked, although it has been less than a year since I first heard it.

Hahaz...I have another title and identity. I had be known as a student, a brother, an uncle and now, a teacher! Hahaz...

A song for lady

2008-03-19T22:24:00.001+08:00

2008-03-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

It is so boring !!!
Hearing everyone's working during this holiday but what am I doing?
Haiz...

How to see you again

2008-03-09T22:10:00.001+08:00

Yuri is so pretty in this. This video is kinda funny too =)

Went to Suntec City for the IT exhibition. My god, it was really "people mountain people sea". It was kinda hard to get around...

Met my friend who was working there. Also came upon a bastard, I do not wish to say more about the f***ed up incident, makes my blood boil...

Spent about $100+ on an mp3 player from Creative and a CD-R cake set.

...MOVE...again

2008-03-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

Ooo...I like them!!! Since like the first time I heard them on Initial D anime

...MOVE...

2008-03-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

2008-03-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

I'm so so sorry that I make you feel this way, I hate to admit it but I dun really wish to see you leave...

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10...

2008-03-04T20:46:00.001+08:00

Oh my... I am so so blind

2008-03-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Ooooo....Today is the first time I have cooked porridge man.

2008-02-29T22:58:00.001+08:00

Well, my Mum's alright now, was discharged this afternoon. Was so relieved.

Tomorrow's going for a class outing...

2008-02-29T00:15:00.003+08:00

Exams are over. School holidays are here. 1 1/2 months!!!

Was at the SGH with my mum for the whole day, yesterday also. She was there cos of her eyes. She was complaining of her vision being blocked or something. So she went there yesterday and I had to rush down to SGH after my paper. She was then told that her retina had become partially detached from the eye and water has entered the space created. Was told that an operation is needed and it would take 45 mins (like real) and she could go home after that.

Went with her to SGH at around 1 today. Waited at the Singapore National Eye Centre for like until 5 after she went to register. Then I stupidly waited for her op to end before going for dinner which I didnt in the end. So at around 7.30 pm to 8.00 pm, I went to have my dinner. Not long before I could chomp down my food, I received a call from the nurse.

Nurse: Are you the son of XXX?
Me : Yes, I am
NUrse: Your mother has come out from the op but she has to be admitted.

I was like, "wat the..."
So I contacted my Dad and told him about it, where my Mum's ward is while I go and do the paperwork for her admission. After everything, it was already almost 10.15...

Will be there to visit her tomorrow...

Bad Day

2008-02-25T20:24:00.004+08:00

Today is really a bad day for me man...

First my watch goes haywire. The clock face shows 12 when it is only 9+ in the morning. Then came the freaking Biochemistry paper which is really a goner liao. Was only able to write crap in my answers. Then after the paper, cut myself when I brushed against the wall at the sports hall. My god, the wall could kill I tell you. It was just a brushed and I can get a wound of about 2 cm which is the worst out of the three I got. Oooo....got pictures for you all to see. Enjoy! -) (the biggest wound has been covered up by a band-aid at the request of Nic and courtesy of Desiree. Thank You!!

2008-02-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

2008-02-13T19:46:00.002+08:00

Hm...I've realised that I do not have much to write about...

Been going back to school to mug for the impending exams, nothing seems to be going into this numb skull of mine. And exams are like ??? days away (I would say 5 days or so)

Had a scolding from my friend today. What was said to me does make sense but I do not know why I am still adament in going my way which leads to nowhere. I do not know what i should do. I am someone who is easily swayed by what others say. This is bad I know but that is the way I am...

Went to buy chocolates and lollipops for those going for tomorrow's organic chemistry lesson. Everywhere I go I see people getting their stuff for valentine's day tomorrow. Chocolates, flowers. Everywhere. Hope that I can pass tomorrow like any other day, without any hitches or heartbreaking news. Been feeling kinda weird these past few days, like as if something bad will happen ...orz...

Feeling of uncertainty

2008-02-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

Dang... Why do I always feel this way after the CNY holidays? I feel that something is happening or is going to happen... Something bad (well, at least to me)

Happy CNY!!!

2008-02-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

To all, Happy CNY to you (thou this may be quite late)

Going out of my mind

2008-02-04T21:51:00.000+08:00

Why? Why do I feel heartbroken when I see you so close like a couple with others? I could just feel my heart breaking up seeing that. How I wished I was the one... A few people have told me to give you up but I do not feel like doing that.
Thoughts of your face runs in my mind, so much so that I want to take my mind out and erase you from my memories because I have this feeling that I will never be with you in the end...

Falling

2008-02-02T14:37:00.000+08:00

I'm falling for you

2008-01-30T13:00:00.001+08:00

WooHoo... Long time since I've updated. Life's pretty bored and hectic now. Tests and the impending exams. Have to start studying now lo...

Had IT and cell bio prac test yesterday. Didn't really study much for both, especailly mitosis and meiosis for cell bio and it came out like almost 1/3 of the cell bio practical test paper was on that.

3 more weeks to exams, soon to CNY and Valentine's day.

2008-01-15T21:02:00.001+08:00

OMG...Been looking for this song for like...since I first heard it on MVP情人 (like about four years ago)

2008-01-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

Haiz...The new term has started. It is another round of being busy with work. Now have projects to be handed in these 2 weeks

2008-01-05T04:40:00.000+08:00

This poster here is a movie that I found on the racks on NYP's library. This is a japanese black and white samurai movie and lasted for 121 minutes. Haha, I stayed through the whole movie. Though the endings quite lame and the movie's in balck and white, the whole movie's quite good I must say. But my "Kak" Erina, who was watching half of the movie with me, commented that the movie was quite bloody with a few scenes of blood shed(in black and white) and later on body parts which she was not there to watch.

恒星的恒心

2007-12-29T14:43:00.000+08:00

五月天恒星的恒心

你和我看星星那夜空多神秘
天很黑风很急你把我抱得很紧
沉默的银河系因为你有意义
你要是落泪滴世界都要下雨

雨降落在大地我安静倾听却无法领悟你为何放弃

带走回荡的回忆你像流浪的流星
把我丢在黑夜想著你
你要离开的黎明我的眼泪在眼睛

下定决心我决定
恒星的恒心等你等你(等著你等著你等著你等著你)
那一年的花季那一刻的呼吸
那一生的旅行因为你动魄惊心
我不是很聪明我以为我可以
守护你一直到最后一丝呼吸

我只是没发现故事已结局
你早已离去我还在坚定

老了累了倦了变了那不会是我不会是我

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我不是很聪明，不定的花言巧语，不懂得追女生，只会吓跑他们
喜欢的却没机会，真失败。

2007-12-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

23rd of Dec. It will be eve of Christmas soo. A seasons of love and joy or a season of sadness?? You decide lo... For me, this day is kinda sad for me, would rather stay at home to countdown than go down to town and see all those couples walking about with their other half. Somemore got those people spraying those fake snow which is bloody sticky after a while plus the big crowd that will be hanging around. I do not like crowds you see.....

Well today was a sunday but went to some church event at Rachel's church. We were kinda late so the event was already on the wqay when we went in. It only lasted for about 20-30 mins. We went to century square and Tampines Mall after that. The event was fine at I got to learn something. Hahaz!!! No, not about the religion but a new way of looking at someone's name.. Hahaz

To _____, sorry for turning you down this week when you invited me for some church event.

Merry Christmas To All and A Happy New Year!!!

分手吧

2007-12-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite song, first heard it from SH's brother's CD but it sounded very familiar even then cos I like heard it on my sister's com even before that. All this happened about more than 7 years sgo so this song quite old.

Rain, Rain...

2007-12-19T14:41:00.000+08:00

Went to Sentosa today. Had time only for some of the attraction before it started raining like what (it has been like this for the past few weeks). Done a lot of things that are the first time for me. Had my first sub at Subway

Actually the weather is just like my feelings now. I also dunno why but I feel ike crap now. Will just out of the blue feek like crap and no mood to do anything. The common test period was also like that.

Christmas is coming soon, think most probably will be staying at home on the 24th while people are swarming to town for the celebrations. Why should I go out on that day? It's the time for love, seeing couples around just makes me feel...

Also, come to think about it, everytime I go to a place of worship, people, be it the father from a church or a disciple from the temple, will be talking to me. Makes me feel worried

Great Teacher Onizuka

2007-12-18T13:19:00.000+08:00

Nice anime, nice drama series, nice songs from this title... What more can I say? (although this is kinda old liao) For those still wondering what I am talking about, I'm talking about the anime/show Great Teacher Onizuka

Dream

2007-12-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

Had a really weird dream last night. Dreamt that that girl, _____, was a rich man's daughter.

2007-12-16T06:20:00.000+08:00

Just finished my sem 2 common tests. Dun feel too good about it I must say. Leaving everything to fate liao, I have played my part. How I fared depends on what the higher being has planned to me.

There are things that I can leave to fate to decide but some others I can't.

Now gonna have two weeks of break but does not seem to be a "break" as there are still projects to be done and reports to complete. Been acting strange lately, think I'm going mad it seems.

Couples...

2007-12-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

Wa... my class MB 0704 now has got 2 couples. Those two couples all ar, hush hush one.

Regrets

2007-12-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

Come to think about it, there are many regrets in my life. My regretting not showing my real feelings for a girl in the past. I really liked her then, I'm positive of that. But because of me not being able to bring what I actually meant across to you, you took it as a rejection and left my world from then on. Although now we may be friends who seldom talk, I still inevitably think of you and the moments we spent together. I know time has passed, you may not remember those times and now you have a boyfriend and graduating soon but it will stay with me forever.

Now, I regret hinting at _____ that I like her. I know I might sound like a jerk who 见一个，爱一个 but the struggles that I go through to ascertain my feelings, 谁知道？

2007-12-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

如果能让我重新再来一次，我希望我不曾出现在你生命里

2007-12-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

如果能让我重新再来一次，我希望我不曾出现在你生命里...

Common test is coming soon... Akan Datang. Haven had the heart and time to really sit down and revise my work. Had to do a lot of reports and tutorials. Wanted to open my notes but always end up sitting in front of my lappie, doing nothing. Dunno why but have this feeling that I am ill-treating my lappie and it is going to die on me soon. Sorry lappie!! =)

TGIF. Today's Friday. Not a very bad day, kinda cold actually. Worked on my reports during the long 5 hour break. Learnt about normal distribution today and had a scare during Biostats lecture. Sister la, scare me only. _____ came into the lecture hall and sat in the row in front of me. Was looking at her and smiling inside me, my face turned red too. Then my twin came in. Fiona and her fren from another class also came in soon. I was stoning when sister suddenly told me something softly. Couldnt hear her so she borrowed a pencil and wrote on my notes "I think they are a couple". I felt my heart sank as I thought she was referring to _____ and my twin. I immediately asked her who it was but luckily she was referring to Fiona and her friend (a girl too btw). Really, the feeling was... (I had this sort of feelings previously too, before meeting _____)

Oh...The chinese words that I have on top are from an MV by Jay I saw the other day. Loosely translated it means "if I could repeat time, I hoped that I would have not appeared in your life". Something like that la

Was I wrong.....?

2007-11-29T02:55:00.000+08:00

Been thinking about ir this whole week. I knew the Organic report was supposed to be handed in on Friday but I told my class that it is due on Thursday late afternoon. I knew that if I said it is due on Friday, many people will take their own sweet time in handing in. The teacher said specifically she wants it at 10 on Friday which is right after our MicroBiology Lecture. I had no choice but to do that...

Stressed

2007-11-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so stressed up nowadays, so much so that I feel like doing things I normally won't. Haiz...

Wah...Listened to YM's problems really jia lat. Now got this news about the dragon boaters who met with an accident overseas which resulted in 5 Singaporeans' death and it seems like she had some connections to those unfortunate 5 souls. One was her friend's friend, one was her friend's boyfriend etc. She's having a hard time consoling her friends. Hope she can stay strong cos she herself has her own problems to settle.

Common tests are around the corner. Dang!!! Haven studied for it. No confidence at all. Then have so much things to do somemore. Plus no mood to study. Cant soncentrate. The sum of all these is DIE!!! Hahaz. Somemore have to deal with matters of the heart, more and more of my classmates are linking me up with _____. Not that I am unhappy about this but I'm afraid that this would make her more scared of me and jeopardise our friendship. I admit I like her la but I need to confirm my feelings, whether it is just an infatuation or not.

The other day, Mark told me he cofessed to that classmate of his that he liked her and wished to bring their friendship into a relationship. Guess what? He was rejected by that girl and was told that she preferred them staying as friends. He toldme he felt better after telling her cos he's been bottling up since a few months ago. Wish I had the courage like him to do that but I guess I will never be able to do that. Met with a lot of this kind of situation liao so got phobia. I tell you, if this kind of things happened from my point of view, _____ will definitely not want to talk to me.

RAch, have fun in HK!!!
Fen, exams finished liao right (by right)? Hope it goes well...

Reporting...Reporting

2007-11-26T09:58:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! Reports in progress

Boring day

2007-11-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

Went around getting accesories for my laptop. Cooling fan, mouse... Haven done any work for today... HAHAZ

Ya...Ya...(Yak Yak)

2007-11-24T12:31:00.000+08:00

Today had Organic Chemistry practical. Was to do the experiment in groups of 5 and was in a group together with Fucker, Fyona, Shi Min and Bee Yong. But what the hell, the whole experiment was practically done by the "love birds" lo. The others have nothing to do at all so we were all lazing around or helping other groups. It was like the group only contains them.

Fucker(he wants us to call him that) was in his crap talking nonsense again. I can understand what the teacher was going through. She only had to be with him for 2 hours per week but us? Everyday of the week!!! Bee Yong was asking him to shut the hell up all the time. When the practical ended, Fucker was still talking crap with his "girlfriend". Bring the caffeine from the experiment home...blah blah. From what I see, he and his "girlfriend" was always trying to joke around in class and asking STUPID (and I really mean STUPID) questions (mostly Fucker will be the one asking).

Got back our MicroB practical reports today. WTF??? "Love birds" can score 100%??? They were asking the teacher all the time la. Others do not even have a chance to ask about how to do the report. Every minute you will see one of them hogging to the teacher...Then it was biostats. Fucker was telling/bragging about his antics in the Organic practical, about how he made fun of the teacher and stuff behind me. Wah!!! Cannot stand it man, had the freaking urge to turn round and.....Nevertheless, the biostats lecture was short.

India's Michael Jackson

2007-11-24T12:00:00.000+08:00

2007-11-22T12:37:00.000+08:00

A song by 五月天《好不好》

不知是对或是不对
不知是好或是不好
不知你甘会笑阮憨
热天西北雨的下午想你不知影你在哪
真希望看到你的笑容
你的温暖充满着阮孤单的心脏
我不能继续再等待想要对你说
乎你想乎你猜
是谁人整眠烦恼
烦恼着无情的风
无情的雨阻碍咱的路
甲你疼甲你惜
甲你捧在我双手中
我一生唯一的希望
要给你快乐好或不好
要给你快乐
好或不好好或不好

日子有甜也有艰苦
有你有我互相照顾
想要听你心内的感想
亲爱你甘有听阮讲
亲爱到底是好不好
甘讲你惊阮没信用
还是你搁有苦衷

2007-11-21T14:43:00.000+08:00

WHY???

Why do people try to do last minute work? I admit I do too but now very seldom already. A lot of classmates asked me for my reports, hoping to have some reference on how to do. It is due tomorrow. I do not know if I should give it to them. I'm afraid that they might copy stuff from my reports, then confirm will get very low one lo. Most of the information in my report is my hard work, blood, sweat and tears. All put into it. I finished mine yesterday so today was left to touch up on them before I print them out for submission tomorrow. I wouldn't want to be suspected of sharing my reports, because I somehow have this feeling that these people might copy wholesale chunks in my reports. It's not that I'm being selfish or anything but if I got low marks because my reports were not up to standard, I'll greatly accept my fate. But if it was because someone copied mine, then it is not worth it. At least those who did it earlier, I can still trust that they will alter here and there my information because they have the time.

Another thing... I am not a person who knows everything one lo. I know being a class rep I am supposed to like know everything but there's still a limit to that ma. Do not come to me and ask me questions about the school I cannot answer. Very stressful one

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